In Portland, the economic difficulty seems miles away from Hawthorne Street. It’s mid-day Saturday, sidewalks bustle with suburban tourists, shoppers, and gawkers. Panhandlers, the dreadlocks variety, hold signs with reefer stained fingers asking for change. I’m just on the hunt for a kitchen sponge. I try giving change to a Streets Roots guy, but come up short. I carry on, defeated. The only sponge I could track down turned out to be a lemon-shaped haute couture with rippled green soft scrubs.
Miles away in a North Portland neighborhood a giant field lies in wait of new homes. What used to be a wild overgrown blight is now a heap of upturned earth. A path of gravel paves the way for surveyors. Nobody’s there today, they’re probably walking around Hawthorne. Nearby kids ride scruffy bicycles. They eye me like an intruder. Their houses are small and old and squeezed between new skinny ones. I make a clean getaway, but I wonder how long before these families can longer afford to live on this up and coming block.
On the way back I take a detour down Denver. Freshly painted and sparkling storefronts welcome a reborn main street. The tourists are few but locals have come out of the woodwork. They’re milling about cafes, a new library post, a happening tavern, and an antique shop, each glistening and ready to face the next decade. I want to stop and grab an espresso at Posies, but duty calls me home to Alberta Street.
When I pull up, two young men, strangers, gab besides a strange truck. They’re not from around here. I suspect they’re talking business. Three new houses, built to look like old Cape Cods, just finished last month a block away. Maybe they’re working out a deal. Across the street from the new homes land is being bulldozed for a bunch more. In this century old neighborhood, the value of property is still being realized. I’m just happy my small house is worth more than I owe.
I wonder about the rise of panhandlers. You see them at every off ramp stoplight or stop sign. You see them near every grocery story. You see them on the train, bus, sidewalk, waterfront. Sometimes they’re on their cell phones or trading cash with other panhandlers. Are they paying each other a wage? The other day I strolled along the seawall near downtown just after lunch time. Over half the people were homeless teens, looking ready to pick a fight. I avoided them and walked faster. And faster. I worked up quite a sweat. I walked all the way, across two bridges, along both riversides. When did the river become so over-run with hopeless wanderers? Are we spending more on new streetcar tracks than we are on parks and open spaces? When you take the train to the waterfront, will the journey reward you? I guess it depends on what you’re hoping to find.
A friend reminded me the other day that we’re all on a spiritual path. The ups and downs, the homeless and spoiled, all of us trek along with the option to uncover something more real. I like how Byron Katie puts it: Is that true? When I see more darkness than light, I try to call up this point of view. We’re on a spiritual path. What we think we see may not be true. That’s when I look a little deeper.

